I just don't understand, I've had a relatively good day but all I want to do is to cut or burn or pour boiling water over myself. I hate it. I haven't self harmed in months but things are getting so bad again I crave the pain that it brings. I know I deserve the pain but I hate it so much. It doesn't help that they
are insulting me and telling me to do it and laughing at me, calling me weak. I just feel like curling up into a ball and never moving. I just want it all to stop
they say they're my friends and they treat me this way. Maybe I deserve it, like they say. I've been seeing scary things all day, it makes me want to cry
but if I cry they laugh and insult me more.