I'm feeling very hurt angry and upset and i dont know who to turn to anymore,
Ive lost my best friend because she was very mean to me saying eating disorders are attention seeking and im an attention seeker also for cutting, puttng on facebook so whole world can see that im suicidal, cutter, and wants to kill myself, her and her boyfriend said im a waste of space :'(
I completly broke down when they sed that punched wall for first time then kept puching it crying untill nuckles bled, I'm very upset i cant stop crying
I feel so sad it hurts, i want to do - but plz dont get me wrong yeah im suicidal but im not guna do anything i promise!!!
I needed my so called best mate the most when i was sexually assulted a week before christmas and she wasn't there- i feel so sad tears r coming now - i keep going through that night over and over in my head i feel phsysically sick i want to die,
I hate myself and its all my fault!!!
I wish i wasn't such a freak i hate that every person i get with hurts me , never had a boyfriend whos been nice, one was for a while but then he got controlling and ignored me for oveer a week then finished me because i was TOO DEPRESSING
My first eva boyfriend threatened to kill me, my 2nd one sexually abused me and controlled me , and the last one sexually assulted me
I'm so depressed i just want to die!!!
I miss it when i was happy- i dont member last time i was happy,
Pushing my care worker away she doesnt understand me well, i cancelled todays appointment and regretted it so left voice mail asking if can still see her she never replyeed it upset me coz she cud still of rang even to say no :'(
i feel like i dont matter now and no1 cares, also was crying to eating disorder specalists because i was soooo down and asked them to ring me and i got no reply that was 2 days ago nor as amanda (care worker) rang bk from 2 days ago when reception said they'll ring me bk....
I give up - better to hide away from the world