feeling pretty low and been cutting alot. got to see that guy again tomorrow about getting out and about and i think i feel scared about that. been thinking of ways i can get out of it but my sw knows me so theres no blagging her.
feel so alone with all my thoughts and flashbacks. not been sleeping properly so feel tired and down all of the time.
hate this illness. it controls the way i think, the way i see things. started seeing spies again but trying to 'keep on top' of these 'thoughts' but am so bloody paranoid all the time. worried the bad people will know im talking about what they did. not worried actually- but terrified.
hope everyone is well, love always xx