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Re: mess *trigger*

Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 5:40 pm
by craziememe
feeling slightly better... dare i even say that????

seen my sw today and she always cheeres me up. im lucky to have her.

cant stop cutting though and still not eating much. still need to be punished.

love to all, alwyas xxx

Re: mess *trigger*

Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 9:53 pm
by craziememe
have had a little bit to eat. feel the need to make myself sick. i feel like im bad and i shouldnt be allowed to eat.
havent cut for 2 hours, really need to but dont want to if that makes sense.
am anxious about going to bed cos i havent been sleeping i got to half five this morning and i just lay there crying.
fat pathetic worthless peice of shit that i am.

Re: mess *trigger*

Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 10:21 pm
by caz
meme.....you arent a fat pathetic worthless piece of shit hun.....you are a really nice person

well done you fo not sh for 2 hours

hugsxxx

Re: mess *trigger*

Posted: Wed Nov 03, 2010 8:28 pm
by Zanuti
how are you feeling today hunni? x

Re: mess *trigger*

Posted: Fri Nov 05, 2010 5:21 pm
by craziememe
really tired, not sleeping much atall. am closer to giving up than spend my whole life fighting this awfullness. everything is starting to seem pointless. im not suicidal. cant explain it really......

should i just get very very very drunk and spend the weekend passed out... sounds like a plan!

dont want to feel.

love to all xx

Re: mess *trigger*

Posted: Fri Nov 05, 2010 5:26 pm
by judithj
however you're feeling, love, getting drunk isn't going to make things any better - it'll just make you feel worse tomorrow, hugs, Judith xxx

Re: mess *trigger*

Posted: Fri Nov 05, 2010 5:31 pm
by craziememe
i know i know but perhaps drinking will numb the pain...... xx