mess *trigger*

[craziememe]

feeling slightly better... dare i even say that????

seen my sw today and she always cheeres me up. im lucky to have her.

cant stop cutting though and still not eating much. still need to be punished.

love to all, alwyas xxx

[craziememe]

have had a little bit to eat. feel the need to make myself sick. i feel like im bad and i shouldnt be allowed to eat.
havent cut for 2 hours, really need to but dont want to if that makes sense.
am anxious about going to bed cos i havent been sleeping i got to half five this morning and i just lay there crying.
fat pathetic worthless peice of shit that i am.

[caz]

meme.....you arent a fat pathetic worthless piece of shit hun.....you are a really nice person

well done you fo not sh for 2 hours

hugsxxx

[Zanuti]

how are you feeling today hunni? x

[craziememe]

really tired, not sleeping much atall. am closer to giving up than spend my whole life fighting this awfullness. everything is starting to seem pointless. im not suicidal. cant explain it really......

should i just get very very very drunk and spend the weekend passed out... sounds like a plan!

dont want to feel.

love to all xx

[judithj]

however you're feeling, love, getting drunk isn't going to make things any better - it'll just make you feel worse tomorrow, hugs, Judith xxx

[craziememe]

i know i know but perhaps drinking will numb the pain...... xx