This is not intended to be arty or even make sense it just intended to show how I am feeling.
The waves are high and sore, feeling thrown about by each and everyone of them. Wishing to be braver wanting to let go but I know I am a coward and just can not let go.
Each day it just gets darker and hating myself even more, lying, smiling, even being funny until I shut the door and then there is no one to see what I see the truth I am still a coward and always will be.
Today is another day the sun is shinning bright the world goes about it's business right through to the end of day light. Still I am such a coward I can't end the day today may be tomorrow I hear myself say. Maybe tomorrow if I can't today.