I'm scheduled to begin EMDR in a few weeks time. Or at least the preparation stage. However, I'm really worried about it and would like to benefit from anyone's experiences.
The therapist tells me that the EMDR will process the trauma memories so that they don't give me such strong/overwhelming emotions any more. That sounds good...but I'm still worried. You see, my partner died a few years ago and it nearly destroyed me. I still have nightmares and flashbacks about it. I'm worried that dealing with it with EMDR will mean I no longer feel anything about what happened. I don't want that. Maybe it sounds crazy, but I WANT to feel distressed when I think of him because it means I loved/love him. It doesn't seem right to walk away from that emotion.
Can anyone tell me if this is what will happen?
When I feel I can't endure, I remind myself that my record for getting through bad days so far is 100%, and that's pretty good.