Your message ressonates with me, 18 months after a breakdown my husband is still very depressed (suicidal), a change of meds, regular GP visits, a trip to A&E has not helped, neither did the 20 CBT sessons he undertook. My sons & I are at breaking point as his mood decends and wildly varies from day to day. We have tried all we can to accomodate him and be as encouraging, loving & understanding but we are now hurting, angry and frustrated as there seems to be no help availible to him - or us. I have teenage boys who now dont want anything to do with their dad as the behaviour is intolerable, days in bed, not washing or eating, threatening suicide, financial recklessness, anger. I am in the same position as you are, do I leave husband to try and build a peacful life for my children, but this will mean abandoning husband when he is ill and possibly needs us the most. Where do I go to get my children help .... my 16 year old is struggling with all of this, my 13 year old cant remember daddy being well.