I'm new and could really do with some help in understanding and processing what has happened.
My now ex-boyfriend decided to end our relationship last week. I was absolutely devastated (still am). A little history, we had been together two years and in the beginning it was amazing, truly the best relationship I have ever had. We spent a lot of time together and were both incredibly happy.
As the relationship progressed external influences caused some tension and meant we were unable to spend as much time together, however I didn't add to this and did my best to give him the space and flexibility he needed. This was pretty stressful for everyone and a little dramatic and I stepped back from the situation. There was also a death in the family shortly after this.
A few months ago we had a conversation where he didn't know whether his feelings were the same and he was not sure if he was happy. We talked it through and carried on, as the months progressed he seems happy and we plodded along.
Out of the blue (to me) last week he ended our relationship. He said that he has started counselling, he says there are issues that he has not dealt with and needs to work through. He said that he has no feelings at all and he does not know what is wrong with him, he didn't understand why he couldn't feel love and that he would probably be on his own forever. He said things have also been impacting on work too but did not give details. He said that I deserve to be treated better and it's not fair on me and he does not want to drag me down with him.
I wanted to be there to help but he said it's something he needs to do on his own and just could not be in a relationship. He said I had done nothing wrong, so why did he leave me??? He mentioned the word depression, I don't know whether this has been officially diagnosed.
This has come as a complete shock to me. I desperately want to be there to help, I love this man with all my heart and he has just pushed me away. He's deleted my friends from facebook and removed my access to some shared apps - it seems so cold.
I tried to call him after giving him a week without contact from me but he ignored my call so now I feel like he never wants to speak to me again and I've been cut off.
I guess I am looking for some insight. Is this the depression talking? Because he spoke to me a few months ago did he just want out? Does this sound like depression? Will he come back to me when he's had some time to work through this? I miss him terribly and he seems to not care at all
Thanks in advance, any replies would be appreciated.