I am new to this forum, I was just looking online for advise and came across this site.
I have been with my husband for 20 years and during that time he has had bouts of depression. It has been difficult. Just lately after pressure at work he has hit rock bottom and had suicidal thoughts.
In our area support for mental health is extremely poor and we have had little help. He tried medication but it just messed him up and he doesn't want to take any more.
I suffer myself from physical problems which cause continual pain and have been very low. Stress affects my condition and trying to cope with all this is just getting too much.
My husband disappeared at the weekend just gone and I ended up phoning the police. They tried to help but nothing came from it, even though they got a mental health nurse to assess him. He is very good at not telling the whole truth.
I still love him, but have reached the point of not wanting to be with him, if that makes any sense. I really don't know what to do and feel my health deteriorating and mentally being dragged down with him.