James so glad to read you doing so much better.
Lillie, pleased to read the court case outcome was good.
As for me, I don't know whether my guy picked up his meds or not. He was not really texting yesterday and when I rang him after work as I have been doing steadily for the last month (albeit a little later than usual yesterday) he did not pick up the call. I texted him instead asking him to ring me when he was free to which he responded about 30min later that he was a bit busy and would talk to me later. That was grand although i question whether "busy" was actually being in the pub drinking. Fast forward 4 hrs with no contact from him and I went to bed determined not to be texting him. He eventually did text apologising and saying that it had been a bad day. I responded fine, good night. I was quite annoyed because (and this goes back to thinking the worst) i was wondering whether his lack of responsiveness was because i told him i loved him the night before and he did not respond (although he did say it back to me a few times in recent weeks)
This morning i questioned my behaviour so messaged him saying sorry for the short answer the night before, that i was a bit annoyed and that i hoped that today would be better. He's read the message not responded but been on facebook on and off all morning
I am really nervous that he is about to withdraw from me again, I don't think I could take it if he did after the progress we have made the last few weeks. The fact that i cannot see him this weekend is also playing on my mind as if he's going downhill i'd want to be there to bring him back up. I seem to be one of the only persons he can be fully open with. Again i am questioning myself, something that I was no longer doing... One thing is for sure, i will no longer play down my emotions, if i am annoyed i will say so
Edit: I was getting myself worked up over the lack of response, which is very unusual nowadays so i messaged him again asking if we were ok and that it seemed reminiscent of a few months ago when he would not respond to me. He just said he had been busy. I am still feeling uneasy and hope that he answers my call later