How are you feeling? How is the anxiety?
Re the complaint, becoming emotional is totally natural and reasonable. I hope that you receive the support that will promote your recovery further.
Meanwhile, try to go easy on yourself and take stock of just how far you have come already.
This all really worries me.....
, I do think it is bad for me. She affects my self-confidence and I need her to build it up, not knock it down. I need space to do my thing, not worry that she’ll be mad at me when I do.
she pretty does know more or less by every move
she never tells me she loves me, never
..... Do you tell her that you love her?
I don’t think I deserve to do anything for or about me.
..... Would a short break from your partner be possible? (even if it was just for a coffee with the DBT group)
Could a friend help you to do this, e.g. could you stay with a friend for a couple of days?
I ask because I'm wondering if having space would be an empowering experience for you?
Also, as MinnieMoo said, it could enable your partner to see exactly what she is missing and to appreciate you more.
You deserve to be loved and appreciated!!
What would you need to do to make things easier and clearer in your relationship?
Sorry for all the questions! I just want to help.
So, news flash!! I moved out and had most of the rent reimbursed! It happened very quickly all in one day! Talk about all or nothing landlady!
Skype interview was really good!! The couple who run the community are going away next week so my visit is ..... Tomorrow!!
No time like the present!
I'm not usually this impulsive but less time to deliberate is always a positive.
In the one tomorrow, it's living alongside and supporting refugee women. Living in a simplistic faith based community with the 18-35 range of volunteers (one from Taiwan, two from Germany, two from America, one from the UK and one from Spain) so a real mix!
The other community (mid-March) is very different! My role would be on the housekeeping team serving all the guests that come for retreats (they do lots of retreats for primary and secondary school, plus adults - so very varied) Again, living in a simple like-minded community with volunteers 18-35 from all over the world. But the work wouldn't be serving the poor, here.
No experience is wasted. I'm going with an open mind and no big expectation. I am hopeful, though.
I'm a little anxious about navigating the transport tomorrow but reassure myself that anyone would be.
Relieved to be out of the miserable kitchen jobs and bedsit.
Still being harassed by needy ex boyfriend and his dad on different numbers..... Big long begging messages... Yikes!
I've blocked the numbers but if it continues I will just change my number! It's not nasty, just a bit uneasy.... And I feel guilty because naturally I'm caring but if I reply then that opens the door to more conversation and coaxing.... Definitely a lucky escape!
Keep me posted on how you are doing. Stay strong.