Just do the best you can in the situation you're in. Allow yourself to feel your true emotions without the pressure of 'I should', 'I must' and 'I wish I was more....'
It's natural to feel the sense of loss and grief regarding your therapy. That shows that you made a strong connection. You've been through a lot and 17 months of therapy is no easy feat.
You've also come through a lot and are now in a place where your therapist knows that you are ready to take the next steps yourself. That's commendable.
It's natural to have apprehensions but with time all these emotions will decrease, pass and heal.
New sensations will surface: Peace, self-affirmation, contentment, pride, self-confidence, ambition, optimism, motivation, achievement, fulfillment, self-awareness and self-acceptance.
I'm so sorry to hear about your GP. I hope that they receive the best course of treatment.
Be assured of my kind thoughts for you and for their recovery.
Moving house is always a stressful venture. But it will be worth it to be nice and settled in a new place as the festive season approaches. I hope you have help to move and that you will be happy in your new home.
When are you moving?
I took the room in the shared house. Today is my first day here. It's very quiet and warm and I have a good initial feeling about it all.
My mother came once I had made the second viewing alone. She behaved, yes. She helped me move in. She is happy for me and she likes the place. (Oh! She would say if she didn't!
Yesterday, as she was helping me move in my stuff, I heard her in the porch downstairs from the landing upstairs saying out loud to nobody, 'Oh! It smells!' There was a very faint scent of cigarette smoke. Enough to be from somebody who'd had a smoke in the garden and walked into the house afterwards. I mentioned it to her later, jokingly, and she didn't even realise she'd said it! Thankfully, only I heard.
So the family therapist is on long term sick leave. When my therapy finishes by next March, we will reassess. If the family therapist is still off, my care coordinator said she could even do some informal sessions with us as she is trained in family therapy. In the meantime, living independently from my parents could be all the family therapy we need.
Otherwise, they're looking at discharging me.
Thanks for checking in on me and for caring.
Keep me posted on how you're doing - That's both SoSad and Minnie!
Take care of yourself,