Hope you're feeling better today. No apologies necessary!
That's good that the meds have put you in a better place. With me, my medication put in a place where I was able to undertake therapy which pushed me further forward again.
I would suggest that you post your question regarding types of anti-anxiety medication to use as and when the manic thinking starts in a separate post on this forum. Others will have more personal experience of what works for anxiety with regards to this type of medication and they will be able to suggest other coping strategies, too.
You see, Doctor Em specialises purely in EM-pathetic EM-couragement, EM-barrassingly bad puns, EM-pressive and excessive use of the EM-oji and 'EM-orising a list of iron EM-riched foods.
Speaking with the doc after your holiday sounds good to me.
Loving all the relaxation and mindfulness. Totally zen, duuuuuude.
All good stuff!
Glad the SAD lamp is helping! WOO HOO to the nice sunny weather we are having! Makes everything feel better!
With regards to the housework, try to set small and achievable goals. Thinking 'today I am going to clean the whole house!' is overwhelming for anyone! Try things like, 'this morning I will clean the bath', 'this afternoon I will iron for 30 minutes', 'this evening I will pick up ten items of clothing off the floor'.... Or whatever!
Try something, e.g. washing dishes, for five minutes only. After five minutes, leave it. Do another five minutes later or the next day. Chances are, you'll feel able to do more than the initial five minutes anyways!
Reward yourself after each task, e.g. 'Once I have cleaned the bathroom, I will watch a film on netflix', 'I will do one hour of cleaning and two hours of Netflix!', 'For every task I do, I get an extra cuddle with Tilly!', 'For every room I clean before I go to Jordan, I will treat myself to something nice whilst on holiday!'.... You get the gist.
Bin the 'should' word with whatever else you chuck out during operation-domestication. Saying 'I should....' only puts pressure on yourself. Rather, say something like 'I am doing my best in the situation I am in'.
You are not 'lazy' - you are tired!! You are tired because of a physical and mental condition/symptom that is out of your control. Remind yourself, 'I am not achieving less. I am overcoming more!'
Bleuuurrgh to all those untrue negative thoughts!! Focus on the fact that you are independent! You ARE not only 'managing', you are managing in spite of your struggles! - which to me says that you are actually managing better than most!!
Don't feel inadequate for having yourself and Tilly to look after. Put a positive spin on it. Imagine having three toddlers at this precise time in your life running around your house like headless chickens getting their sticky waffle fingers left, right and centre!
Enjoy the pleasures of independent living!
Imagine having a dog unlike Tilly.
A dog who is crazy-boisterous, who will never be able to grasp the concept of toilet-training and shits all around your house left, right and centre!
Or who howls all through the night and attacks your neighbour's cat.
Or imagine having a pack of dogs like this.
Imagine having three toddlers with thirty waffle-syruped fingers and thumbs and a pack of shitting, howling, vicious dogs.
Now imagine that...... and THEN that the universe stops producing waffles.
I promise you I am not intoxicated.
I would like to be able to promise you that I also am not insane, but must refrain from being able to do so quite as heartily as I may like.
However, I cannot deny waffle-intoxication. It's most common symptom being explosive-verbal-diarrhoea.
Whatever the cause, I hope to have put a smile of amusement on your face.
Or otherwise a smile of relief as you say, 'Things could be worse for us, Tilly. We could as barmy as Little Em!'
I personally find that planning ye olde diet is the best way forward in managing shopping and what you eat over the next few days. Always make sure you have a few decent things to eat at home. It reduces the risk of eating crap. I speak from experience.
Having the odd ready meal (can be healthy versions!) for a quick-pinging fix, having standbys in the freezer and quick-and-easy-to-cook one-pan foods like soup, baked beans and fresh pasta, as well as grab-and-go snacks and fruit helps massively if you struggle with motivating yourself to cook.
Hahahaha! Do I know the list by heart?
Anorexic-tendencies have given me the often unwanted ability to recall food-related information.
My mother had an iron deficiency a few years ago and the list popped up like Popeye's iron-fuelled muscles then. My therapist also said liver is an awesome source of iron. If you can stomach that kinda thing.
I personally can't fault waffles and chai, though. Great for the happy hormones!
Did you pick up the multivitamin?
*Nagging Doctor Em hides from tired tomato-throwing Emma*
I would also recommend you posting a separate thread about sleeping advice.
And if the tomatoes don't work..... you know what they say!! An apple a day keeps the doctor away!!! *CLONK!!!*
I was in India for Holi!!! It was ..... Colourful!
It was great fun! There would have been better places than where I was personally staying for it, but it was still a 'holi'-lotta fun!
Ahhh too much, too much!
Reflexology course sounds awesome!!! I am massively interested in this. Go for it!
Yes, my care coordinator is great. Looks like (long waffle short again), I will have self esteem therapy from the local CMHT. Just need to clarify the waiting list.
Feel a tad 'therapied-out' anyways, so a breather might be a good thing.
Did I tell you I'm going away for New Year?
How has your day been today?
I hope you're feeling better. *Hugs* ..... *Sneaks a Tilly cuddle*
You take care of yourself. You deserve it. Love Em xxx