*Hugs* Sorry to hear you're struggling.
I don't think you're trying to escape at all! You are achieving balance between the 'everyday-settling-down way of life' and taking a break to 'get away from it all' on holiday.
You are not reverting to previous behaviours that you feel were unhelpful. Your trip is for a set period of time. You will again return home to the 'settled-down-back-to-reality' way of life. Your decision to go on this trip is positive and it shows self-care. Enjoy it!!
Think of ALL the positives about going!
Tiredness can definitely be a very real symptom of depression. I was always exhausted when my depression was at its worst. I would wake up after a full night of sleep and then 'go back to bed' for more sleep! I would also nap most days!
Might be worth speaking with the doc about your meds? I increased my ADs and no longer have sleepy, in-bed-all-day and cant-get-up-in-the-morning days! You also expressed considerable concern about your anxiety. Are you taking any anti-anxiety medication? Just have a chat to your GP about all this as well as the tiredness.
Could the tiredness be a side effect of the meds?
Mindfulness and breathing techniques are both good for anxiety.
I heard from someone at a low mood support group I recently went to that they set a time limit on when they get up at 9am. If they wake earlier, they allow themselves to stay in bed and doze or read or listen to the radio or whatever... But they make sure they never get up any later than 9am. With time, they reduced the time to 8.30am and hoped to reduce to 8am.
Do you have a SAD lamp that gradually brings light into the room during the morning to enable you to gradually wake up?
Another lady at the group would set herself at least one task for the following day so that she always had a reason to get up, e.g. for her it was always to first feed her cats. It could be anything, such as walk Tilly, any domestic chore, something you enjoy.
I cannot recommend a brisk walk in the fresh air enough. Go into nature, take Tilly, say 'hello' to fellow dog walkers, be mindful, and get those endorphins boosted! You will feel more energised and refreshed and in a better mood!
Any exercise does the trick, just depends what type of thing you prefer! Cycling, swimming, running, yoga, or some funny dance class or team sport for the social aspect are all good options. Walking is just my personal preference.
So your iron levels are still low..... Try some iron-rich food (all can be served with waffles. Obviously.
) I suggest:
*Shellfish - clams, oysters, mussels.
*Red meat - beef and lamb.
*Offal - especially liver.
*Fish - mackerel and tuna.
*Leafy green vegetables- spinach, kale, chard, broccoli and cabbage.
*Beans - kidney beans, lentils, baked beans.
*Dried fruits (figs, apricots, raisins), nuts (cashews, almonds) and seeds (pumpkin and sunflower).
*High cocoa content dark chocolate.
*Fortified dried oats.
Vitamin C rich foods are also great for iron absorption.
*Fresh orange/grapefruit juice.
*Oranges, grapefruit, kiwi fruit.
Taking a multivitamin tablet could also be a good move.
When I used to really struggle to get up in the morning, I would shower just before bed the night before so that the next day I could just get up and quickly dress. Being dressed as soon as I got out of bed jumped my brain into 'wake-up' mode!
There are also 'wake-up' motivating hypnosis tracks for the mornings on YouTube by the plenty! As well as before-bed relaxation and hypnosis sessions, too.
A pre-sleep routine can work wonders to relax you. Hot bath, warm milky drink, puppy cuddles and gentle hypnosis track or relaxation music.....
I also really think you'd benefit from one-to-one therapy.
Also, cut down (or slowly cut out) caffeine if you drink a lot of coffee, tea and fizzy drinks.
Drink plenty of water, too. Dehydration can make you really sleepy.
Do you have trouble sleeping through the night?
Okay, so that's all from Doctor Em.
I hope some of that may be of use to you.
How are you feeling now?
Thinking of you. Be kind to yourself, my friend.