Things I used to do I had to stop due to illness and no longer appeal.
I spent several years living as a woman, that too ended after my illness, bouncing me dramatically back to male role.
I also have money worries, other things that need doing, plus a death in the family, so I've been trying to cope with so much all at the same time.
Lost my female routine during illness, trying to find one now is very difficult, not working either, haven't for many years, thought I had a bad back, which now seems OK.
So hard to explain, perhaps it was depression I'd not recognised thus didn't act properly.
Feeling totally lost.