I was wondering if others are dealing with this and if so how.
I suffer from delayed onset PTSD and depression. Some days I feel that I can't do anything, even the simplest tasks. The whole time I am not doing something, for example an application for a job, I feel worse and worse and it gets harder and harder for me to do it. I feel awful about myself the whole time and like I am letting it (my illness and who caused my PTSD) win. Healthy me is very motivated and dedicated and I am very self critical, holding myself to a high internal standard. So when I don't reach it, even due to being ill, I feel terrible.
Also, I always ask how do I know its depression making me unable or am I just lazy, how do i know? (I don't think I am being lazy as I have always been very motivated and being afraid to go outside isn't usually linked to laziness, but I still worry I am)
Sorry if I rambled on, I was hoping for any insight from people who might feel the same?