Well, you have to really push to make it happen. And then get as much as you can from it while it lasts.
You know the really really scared thing here.... I was looking through posts and saw this one, and even though it was only written a couple of days ago. I can't remember writing it. At all.
I am conversing with people perhaps 10-20 minutes a week most weeks. Sometimes I see a social worker or a con for an hour. That has been my life for the past 7 years whilst I haven't been able to work etc.
I am a familiar sight now, in the local town, talking to myself. Public soliloquies. I feel hollowed out.
I pick myself up each time. But I feel like a fly in a spiders web. I have seen and 'understood' so many frightening things when this reality has disappeared, over the years. I can't wipe these from my mind anymore.
I used to have faith, hope, belief, trust.
Sorry for the nature of this post. I can't believe I posted that on Sunday and have absolutely NO recollection of it.