I think the world is a wicked place (sounds like JW) . Where you are is one of the hotspots for the greed and power. You are a victim of this. I sound so arrogant. You know this far more than me. I think I'm trying to rationalise it.
What I can say is that it makes me very sad. and angry at all you are going through. Also, as I've said before, I think you are a very strong person. I used to think that strength equated with less suffering but I've learned that isn't true. Although self pity can stop you moving forward. Ilearnt that through personal experience.
It's much easier for me, I know. And I think my posts are trite though they show a constancy which I've no doubt is necessary.
My son is a postman. On Saturday he was bitten on the hand by an alsation. Stri tly speaking it was his fault. He opened the lobby to drop a pkt in.
By Tuesday, despite antibiotics his hand was showing signs of infection, so they took him in and put him on an intravenous drip. Hes much better but still in as they're being cautious.
Endless people moan about our health service. I think they're amazing. Put them in another country and they'd be shocked.