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Re: Alone.

Posted: Tue Dec 05, 2017 7:51 pm
by littleem
Hey lmlj!

How are you doing?

Re: Alone.

Posted: Tue Dec 05, 2017 9:03 pm
by amaya
Hey thanks :)

So good to hear about the job! It sounds perfect for you.
I think it will be possible to take some time once a week to get to an appointment. I had to do the same for CBT when I was working.. it is a medical appointment so it should be fine.

Re: Alone.

Posted: Wed Dec 06, 2017 2:57 pm
by andthistoomustpass
Hey Em!

So glad you are enjoying the job.

Self care is fabulous!
Love the positive qualities but have to let mine slide 1 post longer as utterly knackered.

I'm good. Current focus is on the mindfulness to help break damaging automatic behavior.valid hoping to stop working at Em levels by end of next week. More time for socialising, shows and self care, YAY! Already easing up, fun planned tonight 8-)
Bye for now my lovely and amazing friend.

Re: Alone.

Posted: Sat Dec 09, 2017 10:21 am
by andthistoomustpass
Hey wonderful Em!

How did the first week go, fast or slow?
Is it all fun or would you rather eat a cream bun?
Self care still there? Have you got nice things to wear to go with your new hair?
Anything nice planned for your day off, a wind down to let the stress fall off?

Has your increased dose kicked in yet?
I have to go back in 10 days to discuss a change in meds following bloods results but I am going to argue for the best I can get. I want something strong enough to leave me dancing in the street and peeing happy rainbows. :D

As for positive qualities, I'm me! 'nuff said :lol:

Re: Alone.

Posted: Sat Dec 09, 2017 10:26 am
by teamn
congrats on getting the job, hope its all going fabulous

Re: Alone.

Posted: Sat Dec 09, 2017 11:48 am
by amaya
I am also curious how things are with you :) do tell ..

Re: Alone.

Posted: Mon Dec 11, 2017 7:00 pm
by littleem
Hey, hey folks!

How are you all doing? I hope you're as well as you can be!

ATTMP, love the poem. Almost as good one I never sent you hehehe......

How was your weekend?
How is work and your studies going?
How is your therapy going?

I absolutely love my new job. It doesn't even feel like a job! It's like I'm a volunteer but I get paid hahaha! I'm working Christmas Day and serving the homeless on Christmas Day has been something I've wanted to do for ages!

My fetes went super mega well! We raised £500 which will pay for two full days worth of meals for all the service users at the shelter I work at! I'm already planning a Spring-time fete and will start getting prepared in the New Year!

Keep me posted my good friend! I am able to turn my life around because I have! I am driven, motivated, hard working and emphatic! I'm glad you're you! Thank you for being you! You could be nobody better!

Take care

Love Em xxx

Re: Alone.

Posted: Mon Dec 11, 2017 7:02 pm
by amaya
Hey really nice to hear that things are going so well with you :)
Things for me are a struggle but I am determined to win!
Keep being awesome x

Re: Alone.

Posted: Tue Dec 12, 2017 3:31 am
by andthistoomustpass
Hi Em!

So glad the job suits you. Being paid for what you would do for free is ideal!
£500 is amazing! You should be proud. I hope you are taking your costs of materials though, makes it sustainable and besides, there is more than one type of self care.

I am able to turn my life around because I have! I am driven, motivated, hard working and emphatic!
Agreed, agreed, agreed, agreed, agreed! I am proud to be your friend.

Work is going well, tough schedule as ever but as long as I keep thinking 'What would Em do?' along with being clear when I can't take on anymore, I keep on top of it all. Study is going well. Got a break from study until New Year. Wayhey!

Therapy has sort of ended, sort of not. I have been equiped with a new set of tools and sent out to see how I do with one session every six weeks or so to keep me on track. Two sessions left. The therapy has really been great for me. Really am so much more open and comfortable with my emotions. So much more comfortable with myself and other people. If I tried to list the improvements I would be typing for days. The damaging compulsions and depression with its negative predictions are still here but I think I know how to improve both. Some good progress with the compulsions today which has really changed my view of them. A good first step. Got the medication appointment in a little over a week. Hopefully I will get something in a dose that will help the depression. If not there are other things I can and will do which may well help on their own.

I've got some fun planned and want to give myself the promised reward of seeing a couple of shows before study kicks in again. Have you got any rewards planned for yourself?

I am strong, intelligent, trustworthy, warm hearted, playful and care about my friends. I am learning to value myself. I also write rhymes which are far less terrible and more amusing than the evidence would suggest. ;)

Bye for now my wonderful, capable and lovely friend.

Re: Alone.

Posted: Sat Dec 16, 2017 8:23 pm
by littleem

The silent Em speaks again! Hehe, sorry for the late reply... Been super mega crazy busy.

How are you all?! Thanks for all your well wishes about the new job. I absolutely love it! Second week in and today they asked me to run the day centre kitchen alone - that means cooking breakfast, three main courses and two puddings plus serving food and drinks unsupervised, working alone with one homeless service user as a volunteer (he was fantastic today!), cashing up and doing all the paperwork, cleaning up and locking everything. It went really well!

I love the people I meet there every day. It's a blessing to be with them. I also really like the staff. The odd few are just plain rude (e.g. Today I said goodbye to this guy and he point blank ignored me and when I introduced myself to him earlier today like 'hiya! I'm Emily', he just goes 'yeah. I know'. I was impressed by how 'not-bothered' I was by this. I'm not there for the staff (the lovely ones are a definite bonus!) as I'm there for the wonderful clients we serve and besides, if someone wants to behave like that then that's their problem - not mine. I'm going to be nice anyways!

Looking into a flat share closer to work for next year. I'll be sharing with two Christian women around my age so it seems a good fit. Living closer to work would also mean I could join the university students at the Catholic chaplaincy every day after work for prayer and Mass. I can't do that now as with the travelling it would make the day way too long! I know the Priest who is at the university very well and it would be nice to meet some younger like-minded folk, too. The house isn't available until February which also gives me that extra time to settle into work and enjoy Christmas and so on!

In February, I'm also going to a volunteer day at the nearest prison to get involved with work I've wanted to do for ages. Nice plans for the future but I'm not overthinking right now.

Hope everyone is doing well. ATTMP, loved the Tim Burton stuff! Thanks!

Em xxx