Hi, I'm sorry to hear what you wrote, I do know how hard it is to read how you actually feel, because I had a letter the other day from my new psychiatrist it is a shock when you read
what you know inside but dare not admit it to ourselves.
Just stay strong, everyone is with you, I haven't been on here for a while but we all know how you feel, as we are the same. Just keep writing and people out there will help. Take care