Andre I appreciate you taking time to once again share your thoughts. At least this time you successfully identified a true feeling of mine - the anger I felt at what you had written. It seems your previous reply was not directed at me but to a wider audience and if you had made that clear I may not have felt the outrage and direct judgement that came from reading it.
I did not doubt that you helped members, nothing suggests otherwise but I find it odd that you are not using the site for your own emotional support...in a way you are though, the replies and appreciation you receive must go a long way to making you feel good about yourself. I asked you because you are different to other users....my post seems rational to me, not paranoid, I didn't suggest anything that was not a possibility...I didn't ask if you were a spy or the police or an alien.... I don't see paranoid thinking in what I wrote nor do I see mistrust...I see a person who has observed your posts noted you don't ask for help or share private thoughts when everyone else here is laid bare.
I made my 'assessment' of you in order to put the shoe on the other foot...because your reply to me was full of assumptions just because I have mental health problems. I'd never in my wildest dreams write to someone on this forum as you did to me using their mental health to make all sorts of stereotypical judgements. I question you therefore I'm paranoid? I have mental health problems therefore I can't accept kindness? or that's it's the anxiety I suffer that's the reason I've asked questions? then to feel 'sad' for me...if you wish to feel sad for a person do it for real reasons, I didn't feel sad writing that. It seems you can't see the trees for the forest, I personally don't know why I wouldn't ask you... I've never asked any other members the questions I've put to you and if you can't see my reasoning then it looks as though we're going to have to agree to disagree on this one. You make the mistake of thinking I'm questioning your kindness but it's not that...in my brain....on this site and in these forums you expect to see all sorts but not a healthy individual who doesn't need support. I'm sorry for you if my mental health problems means you can only look at me one way. Maybe you are projecting your own feelings on to me, I don't know but never mind...
I asked questions, I did not make statements, there is a very big difference. I aim to talk with a person, not to them.
Granny V, I'm really sorry if I've caused you distress. Really though, Andre and I are just two adults having a conversation, their is nothing bad meant from either of us. We are not emotional wrecks
I don't think he's going to understand me and for that reason I won't be contributing further to this post. I hope that puts you at ease.