I'm now 9 months into my thyroid medication and still not better.
Of course that isn't taking into account the 3 months I've spent not taking it.
The reasons why I didn't take it are:
* Because I've lived in denial with my illness
* Because I have no job and I have regretted leaving my last job ever since I took the voluntary redundancy. Looking back now, I could have received support through the employer's employee services but hindsight is kind of something I wish I didn't have, and
* My doctors are now saying I have all sorts of things, not hypothyroidism.
I'm back on the thyroid meds, that is all sorted, but I've had trouble trying to adjust to it. I was also given a severe telling-off by the people on the thyroid forum and some of them are now refusing to talk to me. One of them is now saying I have lied to them and omitted certain truths, but the fact of the matter is I did not want them to judge me and think I am weak or cowardly by not taking the medication.
I have now lost weight and have dropped into the NHS guidelines on body weight as being in the "underweight" category. My endocrinologist is now saying I'm not hypothyroid but Vitamin D deficient and my doctors are now saying I have depression and have put me on anti-depressants.
Is this the life I've now been resigned to? All of this is making me feel so terribly low.