There will be someone some day that will love you that much that I promise.
I am of no use to anyone and what I did in order to protect my family was a waste and the agony im in also a waste. My own MH team does not even want to help me, I mentioned my situation and that a hanging event took place and all i got was "okay". Its getting worse as things progress and I knew I stockpiled for a reason and this is it. Within the next few days I just cant deal with it any longer.
I am pleased that you have found something within our time talking, something that has helped you to aim straighter in your own life. The reality of truth is that if you knew me and needed me I would be there online or in person. I will never judge you on anything that you may say or do there is no need to judge.
I can see your personality is fluid in motion, you can get your inner girl back but you need to put in alot of hard work to do it. What you will need to do is strip down really, take every personality every barrier every protection of your mind and take it apart bit by bit until you only have what you want left. Can be difficult it will take alot of psychological strain but you can manage to do it. Don't fear the girl dont misplace your insecurity around her, leave yourself data write alot down and make sure its visible during a switch then rebound messages to one another its part of the course you need to take. I dont say this lightly its hard very hard, im actually trained in DiD and the methodology to help it. Have you ever done a DES test? im not going to openly put my level online but as int he test 1- light disassociation/ normal to everyone 5= high but its not the highest numeric level you can get.
Sad, im 27 years old and in all those days I have lived today was the 1st ever hug i received from my mother, useless info but true. Im on the way out and the reasons for it is very complicated, half reason I got that hug, mum knows time is running out to make amends with her oldest son (me) we have been at war for 27 years straight. All the effects I have on people are negative and will continue to be that way, I have short time left but there is a couple of things I need to do first a personal note to every person that has supported me during this for instance. I would like to thank you off board so if you wish to trust me or create a new email to get my message to you email me on email@example.com
so I can respond to you