Honestly, if i thought things had a chance of changing I would not be considering it, I just read an updated risk assessment and although I put myself in a vulnerable place its still damning to the point of no chance. The voices I hear have new company all I have been hearing for the last week is police sirens. I am under more stress than I can possibly explain and more gets added all the time, I am so tired and worn out im surprised im even still mentally able to do anything or able to stand up is a miracle and I just cant keep going any longer even if I could my body is soon to fail, all i have had is cigarette's and coke for the past month and my body is starting to reject the sugar in the coke and burn it quickly, I have drunk 13 glasses of coke pint glass's and its not lasting anymore. This is what I want im not even worried about picking up the rest of my wife's things anymore and when I start to cut later it will drop my blood sugar level even more and hopefully kill me in the process.Im just so tired of existance and my life being one big fight. I have just finished a letter to my care co which when I can move I will post off.
I'm a little tea pot bloody and cut, here is my handle here is my butt
ONLY 7 WEEKS LEFT!!