Wow, I feel really humbled by some of your replies, thank you for being so understanding!
And for the people I offended, I didn't mean to and I'm sorry.
I feel very alone sometimes, as I have no friends. I have a wonderful and supportive partner, and a beautiful 19 month old son, but there is only so much they can do. The rest of my lovely family don't know about my current mental health issues, and I don't want to burden them with my problems. I would love to be able to go to playgroups, etc, with my son but I lack the skills to talk to people in social situations. I'm not sure how to go about changing this, so any advice anyone could offer would be greatly appreciated.