Just left my private pyscotherapist and I'm on about the 6th session with the nhs pyscotherapist I feel awful but I can't connect to her I've tried so hard

I very rarely look into her eyes I'm always looking down I repeat the same stories and things I keep going on about my past therapists and that I miss them to her. It awkward silences
I can't just say I can't connect to her as I don't want to hurt her feelings I keep banging on about my old therapists so she might be thinking it anyway I'm finding it so so difficult I feel alone and I don't know what to do.
I've waited for this therapy for 8 months and don't want to go on a waiting list as thats all I've done.i
in July the therapists will switch around so I will get someone else so I suppose I will have to wait till then.
It seems to be I talk and she doesn't say much wheras my other therapists have input and she's another trainee that's all I do get!! All she does is repeat what I say
I just don't know what to do its a mess



Kill me please I'm running out I'm drained and want a coffin now I want to die I can't handle this and everything else much longer I'm broken
