Hello, I am new to this forum and this is my 1st post. I have struggled for quite some time with from what I have read here and elsewhere seems like a form of depression (not diagnosed). I have also lived with anxiety probably most of my life and have found it has hindered me from in uncomfortable situations, like meeting new people and building relationships. When I have been pushed to do these things, I have put on a façade, but have never really allowed people to get too close to make real friendships.
Over the last two months my anxiety, has got much worse as I was the victim of a physical assault in my own home. Whilst, waiting for the police investigation to run its course and avoid all contact with the person, who is a direct neighbour, I have felt like a prisoner in my own home. This person has now accepted a caution and has been issued with a notice by the local housing authority, but the situation is still unresolved in my mind, which has such an impact on my ability to concentrate or go about doing the practical day to day stuff.
I feel constantly on edge at the moment, although not necessarily afraid, but more like angry at the intrusion into my space. I have recently completed my first year of degree studies, but this was made a real struggle over the last couple of months, because of my lack of concentration. This makes me even more annoyed, as it took me a long time to get everything in place to return to education, studying a subject I am passionate about and is the only thing over the last year that has bought any enjoyment into my life.
I have spoken to my doctor’s surgery before the incident re: general feelings of depression / anxiety, but either not much help in my area it seems or its oversubscribed. I have belatedly contacted the local victims support and I am awaiting a call back from a care manager to set up a support plan.
Sorry if this seems like a bit of a drama, but I don’t have many family members or any friends for support. I do feel a little better just now by typing everything out though. Thanks, C.