I've just replied to your first post. Please read it. It's important for I'm replying to these posts in relation to all I said there.
scotty94 wrote:Nature has been built into me. My parent always took me and my siblings away around the country when we were younger. I like traveling... seeing different things. I was a BIG nerd at school.
That's me too! Still love nature. I wither without it. It inspires me. Can't do without wild things around me - although my cats are hardly wild cats! These feelings are common traits of HFA - especially among females - but not entirely, e.g. Chris Packham. I was a nature nerd by age four, and now I'm well-known for being a multi-faceted nerd!
Recently we dont that as much as we have all grown up... and its a shame because thats the only time we were really all together
I understand this completely. I really miss my childhood with my family.
I find talking really hard to do... my parents came in earlier and asked what was wrong... instead of me telling i said 'Its in the book'. I have just started writing my my symptoms and feelings down (although they dont know about the feelings side as that is written in a Japanese style on writing from the back to the front). I prefer to write things down than actually talk.
All so very typically autistic - and for very good reasons. Even the Japanese thing. I've known loads of young aspies into Japanese - so many that I see it as a trait in itself.
I understand why you feel the way you do. The adult world is scary and confusing for people like us. Believe me, your life isn't over at all. You've got everything to live for. You have talents that you can develop and use. People need to encourage our talents and understand our difficulties. Those who don't aren't worth knowing or worrying about.