I’m new I’m sorry if i’m sort of intruding in an already started conversation. However signing up to an online forum may not do me any good if i don’t talk on it.
I’m a female, teenager, currently dealing with anxiety ( specifically social anxiety but experience general anxiety as well), depression and BDD. I’m not sure if talking on here is okay or right and maybe it won’t get me anywhere but the people around me, despite being very loving and supportive, don’t understand what i’m going through. This means that often I fall out with people when they get annoyed at me for being the way i am because of my mental illnesses. I get why they don’t understand but it makes me feel like shit when people raise their voice at me and make spiteful comments over something that i’m struggling to control, only lowering my pretty much non existent self esteem.
I’ve never had a stable father figure in my life, i had a physically and verbally abusive step dad for four years and his abuse usually came after he’d used cocaine, his apparent addiction for the last year of the relationship with my mum. I’ve grown up around several narcissistic people and i’ve really only ever been able to turn to my mum.
That’s me summed up really, I have no hobbies, I’ve pretty much isolated myself from a large amount of friends and even my boyfriend, I am in no way interesting or special or bringing to this forum something you’ve never heard before. But i have been dealing with these issues for 6 years, so since early teenage years, they’re very real and serious and i just thought seeing as i’m too scared to join an in person group, i’d try and online one.