Hi, I'm brand new to this site as well as depression alongside some serious anxiety. So I'm 41 with 6, 4, and 2 yr old girls. My girlfriend and I have been together 7 years and have had our ups and downs. So over the last 3 months she cheated on me 3 times with 5 different people, the last of which 2 weeks ago was with my oldest brother and his wife. Idk what to do! Everything inside me screams leave or do the same to her but another little part still screams stay in there she can change or do it for the girls. She is 29 years old and has been battling addiction for a few years now. I want to be supportive of her recovery so she can be there for our girls but I'm so hurt that I've LITERALLY shoved all that to another part in my brain just so I can function. I've thought about all of it, suicide, my girls need me so thats outta the question. Leaving her, she wouls spiral out of control and it would be only a matter of time before the unthinkable happens. Stay with her, this is the one I've been doing. It's fuckin hard. I'm constantly feeling pressure and a empty feeling on my chest alongside the headaches, moodswings, and "daydreaming". This CANNOT be healthy, I don't know what to do. Has anyone got some advice. None of my loved ones knows so I've also been dealing with this alone.