Hi Moll, welcome to Sane.
I guess I'm kinda like you. I have no formal diagnosis but I am off work with anxiety at the moment and the thought of going back, or even talking about the place, sets my stress levels through the roof. I have anxiety anyway tho and seem at the moment only to be able to do anything when I am with someone I trust - put it this way yesterday I went to walk to dog and had to come home because my anxiety couldn't cope with all the other people walking their dogs on the same path, and they were 100ft in front and behind me so not even close!
Are you seeing anyone for your anxiety or taking any meds?
All the best
You are braver than you think, and stronger than you know.