I came across SANE browsing on the internet. I have just been diagnosed with scizophrenia although my mother was not shocked, I was as I did not realise I was ill at the time. The tv was sending out special messages to me and I thought that it was just a big secret and I was not ill at all. I thought that others were trying to control my actions. I drank too much to make myself feel better though that probably did not help. I feel so much better now I know the support is out there as I tried to take my own life when I felt all alone. Now I know I can just go to hospital I know I will never be in that situation again. Especially now I am on the correct medication.