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*trigger* I'm ready to go

Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2020 11:01 pm
by nohopeleft
On the 7ths I was spiked and woke covered in bruises and bite marks
Police are involved etc... But I am suicidal I have told the crisis team about
How strong these feelings are and have been brushed off time and time
Again.. Today I have finally accepted there is no help.. No1 actually cares
If I live or die... I have all I need to fall asleep and never ever wake up
I have over 150 10mg morphine pills and over 200mls of of oral morphine
I have my note written.. So tomorrow I plan on acting OK get discharged from the
Crisis team go into the park Woods take this and just drift off...
I will finally be at peace

Re: *trigger* I'm ready to go

Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2020 2:41 am
by bec71
please dont, how are you feeling at the moment

Re: *trigger* I'm ready to go

Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2020 2:45 am
by nohopeleft
I have tried soo soo hard to access help but it's been thrown back in my face by the so called crisis team.... I'm drowning and I can't find a way forward.. I actually feel more at peace knowing I won't have to be here much longer

Re: *trigger* I'm ready to go

Posted: Thu Feb 20, 2020 6:55 am
by jessicajay
I hope I'm not too late with this reply, but please don't kill yourself.

I can understand that you feel suicidal and you have been let down by the people who should help, but if you are dead it's the end of any good feelings as well as bad ones.

I don't know how to articulate this, but you say you feel more at peace having made the decision - can you try to keep the peaceful feeling by acknowledging your determination to kill yourself, but putting off the action? (I say this because I have been depressed off and on for over forty years and as long as I have a death plan I can hang on through the worst of times).

I don't know what else to say, but please at least reply and tell me I'm daft - that way I'll know you are still alive.

Re: *trigger* I'm ready to go

Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2020 6:38 pm
by prycejosh1987
nohopeleft wrote:On the 7ths I was spiked and woke covered in bruises and bite marks
Police are involved etc... But I am suicidal I have told the crisis team about
How strong these feelings are and have been brushed off time and time
Again.. Today I have finally accepted there is no help.. No1 actually cares
If I live or die... I have all I need to fall asleep and never ever wake up
I have over 150 10mg morphine pills and over 200mls of of oral morphine
I have my note written.. So tomorrow I plan on acting OK get discharged from the
Crisis team go into the park Woods take this and just drift off...
I will finally be at peace

Suicide is never the best thing to do. The best thing is combat these feelings, dust yourself off pick yourself up and keep walking. Good luck.

Re: *trigger* I'm ready to go

Posted: Sat Jul 25, 2020 5:10 am
by anniexox
Hello,

I could reply with so many things, however, what I choose to say to you is that this too shall pass. When we want to kill ourselves , often it's not actually because we want to die, but rather we do not want to live the life we are living.

With that I can tell you that you are an amazing, worthy individual who we would love to have on this earth. Your time is not up.

Things CAN and WILL change.

This too shall pass