hi all I’ve been going through a difficult time for the past year or so, my husband decided to extend in his job and we ended up living hours from family and friends. I have no support, I’m isolated, I live in a upside down house (kitchen bottom floor, bedrooms 3rd floor) with a toddler and baby and find each day hard work just going from floor to floor. I suffer from anxiety and situational depression for over a year. Saturday night I got very drunk locked myself in the toilet and screamed my head off, my husband ignored me all weekend and slept on the sofa when I tried to talk to him before this. He’d been away for 3 weeks then came home in a mood. The atmosphere was awful. I don’t speak to any friends because I don’t have any here and he’s my only adult conversation. I end up trying to do everything alone and then keep all my emotions in until I blow... I’m more embarrassed about the way I acted and cried, screamed, drank so much gin it makes me feel disgusted. I just feel like I’m losing my mind? I have to be strong for my kids but I feel like I’ve given up? I’m so miserable? I don’t see what to do anymore until we can move away from this job I’m stuck? Isolated and going mad... please tell me I’m not going mad
moving away from here will alliviate all these problems but we have a few more months to go... why am I behaving this way? I’ve said I can’t cope for so long but I don’t like the way I’m behaving anymore?