deb1960 wrote:I find each day a struggle. I really hope the pregabalin helps. Normally I get a couple of good days here and there but now it's wall to wall anxiety. I get out each day and that's good I suppose. I know too that anxiety can be worse than this for people.
I just feel, and can't help it, that this time I'm in it forever. And so I want my life to rush by so I can be at peace. I really think there are lots of people who feel this way. I'm trying to tell myself it's catastrophic ththinking (which it is) but my thoughts are so negative and the total lack of good days (which hasn't happened before) make me feel hopeless.
I spoke to a worker at the drop in, she told me she'd had anxiety and had 250 panic attacks a day. Is that possible? She didn't take meds as she didn't want to and got better by focusing on things. I like her but all those panic attacks in a day is suspect.
It's making me feel a bit better typing this.
Yesterday I went to the craft group at the Salvation army. The minister Jane talked a bit to me about depression. I can't explain but ive got highly sensitized receptors in this area and she said something that hinted at judgement (not of me) . I never hear judgeme nt in fellow sufferers and judging anyone really puts me on alert.
You may not call this moaning which is perhaps because you recognise my pain. I recognise your compassion
Thank you xx
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