annabelle3 wrote:I just broke up with the guy I have been seeing past couple months. I liked him alot but yesterday he wanted to watch a movie, seemed like one I shouldn't be 'scared of', but then of course the actress got naked, full front breasts, then a couple sex scenes with her fully naked. This morning I said to him 'you were sitting next to me and looking at another naked women, moaning having sex. And then you asked me if I liked the movie?! No, I didn't like it' and I said we're too different and broke it off. He said 'so what?' and 'it was just a couple scenes, it's not like the whole movie was about it..'.
Some of you are saying this is taking over your life? It already took mine over.I'm 35 y.o. I am never going to have a husband, a family.. I am never going to love and be loved like I dreamed of since a child. Because of this shit.
Btw, someone called this a 'moral compass' of ours. Well, the internet, my friends (female!) and therapist use the terms 'insecurity', 'too controlling', 'low self-esteem', 'unrealistic expectations'. I can't even discuss this with anyone I know as I'm tired of being laughed at or looked at with pity.
Girl I feel you so much!! I know exactly what you mean like it bothers me and its not because I am insecure of myself, or hate my body or start comparing myself to those naked women and then feel my self esteem drop. Its not jealously either. Its just simply the fact that I just do not want my significant other seeing other naked women just like I dont see naked men (so rare compared to women and even then men are not sexualised like women are in the media). I just feel like its something intimate and as idealistic as it sounds I want to be the only women he sees naked you know. Just doesnt feel special if it isnt that way and he sees other naked women right after we have sex or whatever. I added you girl!