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belle
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Had enough Trig

Postby belle » Thu Jul 24, 2014 1:31 am

Had enough just that.
Too tired to fight any of it anymore.
Feels very lonely in this little space and RL.
Thought of phoning crisis line or Sams but is that how it ends? Such a pitiful waste of space I only have a stranger in the night to talk to or ramble away on here?
I wish I could just get on with it but... ? But what?
Talking to myself - not a good sign.
This cannot go on.
What is the point?
More nails on the coffin today - well yesterday to be correct.
Feel sick. Sick of it all.
Self indulgent? Don't judge me please. Time, deeds and words have done that already.
But the truth is there is no cure. And who's to say death won't just bring more of the same?
I feel very alone.

Milky
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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby Milky » Thu Jul 24, 2014 9:49 am

Hi Belle,

Sorry you are feeling this way, i haven't seen you post about yourself lately so was hoping no news was good news ... It must be very hard not having anyone with you when you are feeling so low, i am lucky to have my partner and i still find it hard! I have been talking to myself since i was a child now you have me concerned! Did you get bad news yesterday? You have helped me a lot on here i don't know how to help you back :cry:

Try not to give up, i don't know what life has thrown at you but you have made it this far

Thinking of you x Be safe

belle
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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby belle » Thu Jul 24, 2014 4:51 pm

Thanks for replying.
Yes - bad news at the hospital yesterday.
Not sure if I can cope with all this.
So angry too.
It's like being in a nightmare maze and never finding a shaft of light, let alone signs of a way out.
Rang crisis lot in the end around 3am. No answers because there aren't any.
Feel so sick of living.
Take care.
xx

Milky
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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby Milky » Thu Jul 24, 2014 5:31 pm

Shame there isn't a chat option here i am near enough always awake till 5am i could have spoken to you. Sorry about your news, i dislike hospitals i never usually have a good experience and have been many times growing up. You don't deserve this hardship nobody does.

I don't judge you at all for the way you are thinking or feeling, i have thought about ending it many times but have always stopped at the thought of what happens at the end?

Im here thinking of you and always able to talk xx

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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby ooby » Fri Jul 25, 2014 7:04 pm

Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

belle
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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby belle » Fri Jul 25, 2014 11:27 pm

Thank you.
I simply have no idea.
Take care.
xx

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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby Milky » Fri Jul 25, 2014 11:31 pm

Hey Belle guessing you can't sleep either? x

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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby belle » Sat Jul 26, 2014 12:42 am

Hi.
No still awake. ...
You?
xx

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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby Milky » Sat Jul 26, 2014 11:08 pm

I got a few hours last night, nothing great though. How are you today ? x

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Re: Had enough Trig

Postby belle » Sat Jul 26, 2014 11:14 pm

Hi there.
Glad you got a bit of sleep.
The nights can be very long.
I managed to do one job today which was an attempt to be positive.
Too much going on in my head to sleep atm.
Hope you feel a little better.
Take care.
xx


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