Ohh Cragchristopher88, some people are just incredibly ignorant and selfish.. they will never understand until they have been through mental illness themselves, and wouldn't know what hit them if they did!
But aren't you glad these people showed their true colours early on? Why do you feel that you want a relationship for xmas? You shouldn't rush into getting into a relationship my friend, you need a spontaneous TRUE relationship and that will come to you. When it does it won't feel fake, you won't have to put every effort in to be someone you are not, they should love you for who you are despite your difficulties, don't let anyone put you down because you don't work.
These days the media hype's up that people on benefits are lazy and unwilling when the majority are seriously unable to go to work and function. That's why most people see it as fraud because the only stories in the papers published are about fraudsters and lazy folk who take the benefit system we have for granted.
You won't die alone, your true love will come to you one day think of number one for now would be my advise! Don't ever think you aren't worth it, you seem to me like a very decent and very smart guy, so show those ladies that and don't hide your MH, be open and the genuine girl awaits you.
Trust me, I've been in too many fake relationships and the best came to me when I wasn't looking, I was in a mess with my MH, and he is one truly kind and caring, understanding person and I'm so glad I didn't chase the fake guys.
All the best man! Hope you are ok!