Hey have you contacted Samaritans? You deserve to feel safe where you live. Really hoping you get support to get into a better situation. You are strong enough to have overcome a lot in the past by the sounds of it and when you are doing things that help you cope you are able to manage things much b...

Yes we had a relaxing day thank you. I saw a couple of GPs before I found one that really helped. A therapist could help with trauma if it’s something psychological and maybe even help to make you feel a little better about things until you have test results to see if there is anything medically wro...

.. I also lack the drive I used to have, I think as you get older we find meaning in different things. Sometimes it can feel everything is just a bit pointless??? Which in some ways it is. Do you ever feel like that too?? I feel now the meaning of life is the little things, people we connect with, a...

Merry Christmas.. I think you should definitely see a different doctor. Sounds like you’ve tried quite a lot of things yourself and it’s not working. I don’t think it’s abnormal for a bit of depression to hit most people at some time but if it’s not lifting you need some support. Try different docto...

Ps you may even find more distant relatives who are more on your wavelength.. I’ve got a couple of family members who I enjoy spending time with and vice versa. Spending too much time with people who don’t seem to enjoy your company, who don’t appreciate you, or who put you down would make anyone fe...

Your post was painful to read, I could have written the same thing some time ago. I don’t know your family situation but it could be that you want more connection than they are able to give, for whatever reason. They may have trouble forming strong bonds with others perhaps, or have bonds in a more ...

Or perhaps foster or adopt a child, especially one with additional needs would appreciate all the love you have to give them

Have you thought about getting a lil pet in the mean time? Maybe a rescue who would love you to dote on them

I’m sorry you had those bad experiences. Before I met my partner I felt exactly the same as you every Christmas. I’m glad I didn’t settle for the wrong person now, for me that would be worse. And you are right, no one is having the perfect Christmas. But still it is so so hard when you are single. M...

Hey deckie. Wow I love that you have always found pleasure in the little things. Not everyone does feel like that. You know how good you can feel and you want to feel that again. I’ve definitely gone through phases like you mention and come out the other side eventually. Retirement is quite a major ...