Esketamine (a micro dose of the party drug and anesthetic, ketamine) is being used in the US to treat depression, https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/325254.php. It is expected to receive UK / EU approval around November. Approval for use on the NHS is likely to take a further six months. I'm ...

Diary Entry Hopeful signs. I've noticed my behaviour with other people subtly altering. I am being more assertive, almost like I am starting to believe I am worth something. Found the following quote about toxic parents, it spoke to me because it address my guilt and shame. This quote is about mothe...

Diary Entry I was right that cutting myself off from life was a bad move. My mood dropped massively. Countered it by being a very active bunny this week with lots of fun activities. Really enjoyed myself at times, focusing on doing, in particular with physical activity, has given me a real break fro...

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Hi Thanks for posting, it is very brave to be so open. I have no answers for you but I can definitively say that what happened then and how the lessons and emotional training of childhood affect your life and choices today are not and never were your fault. An adult in a role of trust and authority ...

Diary Entry I am always looking for human contact and validation of my existence but human contact is also painful and disturbing. I have been fighting the urge to cut people off, to isolate, for a few weeks now. It gives temporary relief from all sorts of emotions and anxieties but I have been down...

What about going back to part time work? How about remembering you are more than good enough for other people and that most people are nice? How about trying something completely different but escapable such as that Catholic group we talked about? How about an off peak return on a local train servic...

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Feeling totally drained. Counseling today led to me crying properly, big salty tears, for the first time since I was a kid. Don't know how I feel about that yet but do know that my aim for this therapy was to access more emotions and some self compassion. Looks like it is working .