Thank you for that. It helps. Acceptance is hard. Totally out of any fight to get them to gove me the help I need. In a strange vacuum today - bewildered and emotionless. Totally alone in every sense. In a physical place where I will not meet anyone I know or have a chance to speak one word to a hum...

Hi - sorry I haven't posted before. Unimaginable but yes - it has got worse. Much worse. I can't really explain what has happened for fear of identification but I just don't know what to do anymore. I had been hanging on but people in The System have just pushed down the black hole to the very botto...

Hello. Bad day with both appts going really pear shaped. Cried so much there are no tears left. Dissociating and can't work out what's going on. Somehow I am expected to 'cure' myself with no input or support from the 'professionals' is today's message. How the hell do I do that? And if I could don'...

Hi Christabel. Well, still here. Thanks for asking. I did sleep for a few hours - yesterday was just too much - which helped a bit. I can get out ok - just takes a bit of planning depending on what is going on physically that day. Rang CMHT is absence of still no response but got duty person who doe...

Hi again. This last patch started in April but I've had physical and mh issues for nearly 40 years. It's a long time. I've tried so hard with both. With mh short of moving to get out of the mh trust area I'm out of hope. Physical - can't even go there. Have just taken meds so hope sleep takes me put...

Thanks for the encouraging words and being around.
It does help a bit. xx
It's the unrelenting nature of it all.
And the frustration.
I have no fight left today.
xx

Thanks for replying. I've been ill for years and I try to think things might change but they just change for the worse! I know it sounds like self pity but the reality is hard to put any kind of positive spin on. I have exhausted support avenues. The crisis line is hopeless - advice ranges from pain...

Well its been a long time since I posted or supported anyone on here. Sorry. I'd like to say I've been well and things have been good, but it's all just the same or worse. Everything and with more problems and crap 'professional' support. Physical and MH the worst they've ever been possibly but that...

Good to see you post. xx
I agree - the new format isn't very friendly.
Take care.
Xx

Hi Alison.
Hoping you are ok.
Xxx